Sweet Sweet Devotion

Tut.. Tut.. Tut.. Tut.. Tut..

Irama telepon yang menyatu dengan dentuman jantungku.

Dum.. Dum.. Dum.. Dum..

Sudahlah.. sepertinya tidak di angkat.

Hujan di luar sana mengiringi suasana kamar ku yang dingin. Ku putar - putar handphone ku. Membayangkan. Mencoba menelanjangi misteri apakah yang akan terungkap di depanku.

Tidaklah.. aku tidak punya hak untuk menyentuh kotak misteri itu. Kubuyarkan segala macam kemungkinan - kemungkinan yang terlintas laksana film layar lebar yang dimainkan di depanku. Bedanya, ini belum terjadi.

Aku hanya berharap. Berharap kepada penulis hidup ku.
Aku hanya dapat percaya. Percaya sepenuhnya bahwa hidup ini akan berjalan sedemikian indahnya.
Aku hanya menunggu. Menunggu apapun yang terjadi akan indah pada waktunya meskipun menurut mereka itu hanyalah kesia - siaan belaka pada masa sekarang.

"Believing the unseen, because the seen is lasting for only a limited period of time."

I. am. excited.

Fix-it

Unusual but.. sweet somehow.

^{"philiphians 4:8"} For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

For some people go none for things above..

Mind.. Mind.. Mind..

 For every work comes from mind.

So, if you longing for a fixed life, fix your mind.  

Again. Christmas Tree. Something on December.

  

Sudden Craving

My sleep hour was ruined yesterday. I slept at 18.00 then i set the alarm on 19.30 as it lose became 21.15. A bit freaking out yet thankful for the nicest sleep at that day. Meaning to say, i become very bright tonight since the very late awake and a consumed grande cup of coffee. I could not even close my eyes then i decided to roll on this blog. Anyway, now is 2:39:17 AM with cackling rooster outside that makes me even hardly fly high to the 'kapuk beach'. 

Yesterday was the last day of advanced II class with Mr. Ahalik. At the end of the class, he unexpectedly asked us to take pictures with him. The funny thing was he asked with a loud voice but still with his straight face, made me giggling a bit in the mid of people rushing to go outside. And voila! Here's the picture also with my classmates. My comment is this university so photogenic!

 

Me-with the brightest purple shirt ._.

Then i was tasking when suddenly i craved for a roasted belacan fish before Saos Padang Crabs. Ohh my saliva could not hold it anymore made me rush to go to a restaurant near my campus. So, me and my friends who wanted to have late lunch brought all the hunger to that restaurant. It was a nice place though. With saung - saung rows beside a pond that used to be a fishing area. Green and brown dominate the place relieving natural and cozy atmosphere, bringing out all the stress inside me. 

Soon as the waiter offered us the menu, we ordered Roasted Patin with cobek sambal, Padang Sauce Calamary, Buttered prawn, Sprout sautee, and kangkung belacan completed with coconut ice. 

Less than half an hour, the plates were already empty. What a nice lunch even though it was so sudden! Sometimes, sudden things run so well comparing to the planned one. Lol. 

The tissues distracted my attention. I took one of them and i burned it with the candle used for frighten the flies away. The fire became bigger and bigger that i simply threw it behind me as Welton was standing there. The saung is made from bamboo which easily to be burned. I seemed like care not about what i was doing and Welton immediately blew the fire away to the pond. You have to see his face that was frightened and panic while he fan the fire with his hand and blew it with a hurry. Do you want to know what i was doing? Watching over his moves and LAUGHING OUT LOUD! Never been i imagined i would simply threw the tissue and let him blew the tissue panickly. But he looked so funny yet i rolled out and did not have sufficient time to help him. Blub! The tissue gorgeously be thrown into the pond leaving crinkled forehead and sharp-eyed towarded me. "I'd rather throw you out to the pond," he said. But it did not stop me to laugh. I am so sorry, big brother! *eyelashes*

Me, Kotoeng, Tim, and Weltong

 FYI, the price is quite cheap and worthed considering the place. Soon i will come back. The weather also nice with drizzling rain poured out from above with adorable people and accident :P My laugh burst out when i imagine the accident. What a life.

Thank God for the great lunch!

Wait. There's a sound. Oh no. Those are my papers waiting for me. Okay. See. you. later. WOOHOO.

Regards,

Me Whose Stress Is Relieved.

December Roses

Time flew quite fast, depends on how we be friend with it. It's already December! Oh man. I can clearly recall what happened on the last christmas day. Family dinner. And a week after, me and the big family celebrating the new year that would come. However, in the blink of an eye the new year i celebrated has been becoming another history.

Reflection is another thing i used to do at the end of year. Overall i could say this year may become one of the best years in life. I learned bunch of things, made tons of mistake, new thoughts, gorgeous new best friends, and another year add into my life. But still, numerous to do lists have to be caught up considering 28 days remain before the brand new year arrives.

It is all came up in mind when christmas fever starts to wave repeatedly. Songs being sung in every cars i was in, stalls, and even the christmas tree stood up rigorously with every blinks glittering and the winking lantern as it tried to say, "Christmas will come, christmas will come. Be happy. Be joyful. And dance with me. woohoo."

Though it has no connection with usual christmas, but i would love to have christmas full of roses. Vespa, guitar, roses, gravels, and...

Okay, papers are waiting.

Regards,
Red Me Roses.

DAYET a.k.a DIET

It is a miracle. Rasanya sih makan udah banyak banget banget banget. Tapi pas nimbang.. phew. Tetap dan tidak berubah. Wooo. Awal - awal semester memang saya menjalankan diet yang awalnya bukan bermaksud untuk diet. Sebelumnya saya sudah hopeless loh kayaknya badan ini nggak mau deh turun lagi beratnya mau diapain pun juga. Then i pray! Seriously. Even if it is small thing. Then pas liburan saya berhasil menurunkan sedikitt banget but it was kinda amusing. Then minggu pertama masuk kuliah, Itu sama sekali tidak ada keinginan untuk menyentuh makanan! hanya buah dan sayur - sayuran. Minggu berikutnya makan siangnya sudah terserah diriku. Minggu berikutnya mulai ngemil - ngemil, minggu berikut - berikutnya.. Aaah cape juga makan buah doang haha. Tapi saya pun berhasil untuk menurunkan sekian persen berat badan saya sebelumnya.

What i learn is, cara ingin kurus dan ingin gemuk itu sama. Makan makanan yang sehat dan bergizi.
The most important is mindset. Jangan sampai diet karena ingin kurus tetapi diet lah karena ingin hidup sehat. Kalau objektifnya karena ingin kurus, itu makan memang sedikit - sedikit tapi keinginan untuk makan nya itu semakin besar. Sedikit - sedikit lama - lama menjadi bukit.

I will share it to you because i cannot hold the good things happened to me. I want you to know the good things in LIFE! woohooo.

Tips dari saya:
1. Jangan atau kurangi makan nasi putih. Nasi putih adalah makanan yang tidak ada nutrisinya. Setelah di giling, nasi itu memang bagus banget. Putih, jernih, wangi, dan legit rasanya. Tetapi nasi yang kita makan sehari - hari sudah mengalami oksidasi karena gabahnya sudah dibuang. Akibatnya nasi itu berkontak langsung dengan udara dan menghasilkan reaksi kimia yang membuat nutrisi dari nasi berguna. Sepertinya sih gula itu sifatnya berat dan karbo. Jadi mungkin hanya itu yang tersisa di dalam nasi putih. Saya sarankan untuk memakan nasi merah atau menggantinya dengan kentang.

2. Jangan atau kurangi makan roti putih. Sebagai substitute, roti gandum pun oke tetapi untuk orang bergolongan darah B jangan memakan roti sama sekali karena raginya yang membuat tubuh semakin melebar. Waktu tantenya dorm mate saya yang dari China datang, dia memberikan saya saran untuk tidak memakan bing gan atau pao sama sekali. Biskuit atau roti. Anw, She is a doctor. So, i believe her and committed not to eat those pleasure too often.

3. Jangan makan malam. Segala makanan yang dimakan 4 jam sebelum tidur akan menjadi lemak pada hari berikutnya. Menjadi stagnan di dalam usus dan membuat perut semakin membuncit. Eugh. Karbohidrat sangat tidak disarankan untuk dikonsumsi sebagai makan malam. Selain proses pencernaannya yang membutuhkan waktu yang lama, waktu malam hari tidak akan membuang energi sebanyak siang hari for most people.

4. Jangan makan gorengan. You may not know how much oil in a piece of bakwan. eugh. More than what you think. Coba sekali - kali peres deh :D

5. Kurangi cemilan. Biasanya kalori cemilan itu lebih besar dari nasi. Saya benar - benar mengurangi cemilan dan it works!

5. Berpikir untuk hidup sehat. Bukan untuk diet

6. The hardest part for me: EXERCISE! *lalalalala Untuk mengecilkan memang bagian dari mengatur pola makan, tetapi untuk membentuk tubuh, olah raga lah yang paling efektif.

7. Hakuna Matata. Don't worry, Be happy. Things will happen the way you imagine. So, do not worry and imagine your ideal body :D :D :D

8. Enjoy the process. Buah dan sayur, kacang - kacangan, ikan, dan salad adalah hal yang menyenangkan! Be happy!

Penting loh untuk menjaga kesehatan. It shows how much we love people surrounding us. Bayangkan kalau pola hidup kita tidak sehat and kita jatuh sakit, yang sengsara siapa? Our (future) spouse and children, parents, siblings, even our friends.

If you love them, stay healthy!

Smooch,
(Try to be) Healthy me.

The Basic

TO LIVE THIS LIFE NOT TO EXIST THIS LIFE

Saya hanya berpikir. Banyak sekali kebohongan yang membuat kita semakin menderita. Contohnya adalah orang yang tidak mempunyai tujuan hidup. People with no purpose is even worse than death. They do daily things but do not know what is the substance of all. They are all futile. Apa akhir dari semua yang kita lakukan?

Kalau tujuan kita untuk sukses, setelah kita mencapai kesuksesan kita, then what? Seorang direktur perusahaan besar suatu kali bertanya, "Saya bingung sekali. Sebentar lagi saya akan pensiun, tetapi yang membuat saya kepikiran adalah apa yang akan saya lakukan setelah itu? Tujuan hidup saya adalah menjadi direktur suatu perusahaan besar. Setelah itu tercapai, saya tidak tahu lagi setelah itu saya bagaimana. Masa menjadi direktur sudah lewat." Sama hal nya dengan seorang model yang berkata, "I live for Fashion. I am created to be a Model!" Pernah bayangkan tidak kalau dia sudah tua dan keriput, tidak ada lagi yang akan hire dia untuk menjadi model. Fashion ratusan juta pun tidak akan sanggup menutupi natura yang ada. Baru terpikir ya kalo that is why operasi plastik yang sebenarnya menyiksa itu laku banget. They want to look beautiful and secure but inside is insecure. Worry if there is something wrong about their appearance. Setelah dia tua, Does it means kalau tujuan hidup dia sudah hilang? Atau kalau tujuan hidup kita adalah lahir, dibesarkan, sekolah, kuliah, kerja, menikah, punya anak, then die. Then what for? 

If you see the gravestone, there will be a (-) between the born date and the date when you die. (-) is a big mystery of your life. It's about what they have done. Not for being remembered but to create a history, "Will the world be the same before you exist and after you die?" Start from the simple thing, it does not have to be the whole world that change.

What will you answer if you are being asked such questions:

What is the purpose of life?

Why do you exist?

Who is your creator?

Why does the creator create you, someone like you?

People will think and they will figure the question out by 'guessing'. Some guess nearly correct, some others not, and even some will honestly answer, 'idk!' If i create a handphone and i give it to the tribes that do not know the technology, what will they do? Will they know what is that for? I do not think so. Most probably, they will throw it out thinking it is a ball, or they will stand it up or to be display. They us it not congruent with the intention why i - the creator - create that handphone. What is the easiest way for them to know the use of that thing?

Ask The Creator.

They just need to ask me and i will explain it delightedly, then they will use it as it is created to be. *Reflecting* It is the same with human. They often do something that is not along as the intention the creator. Someone create something must be based on reasons, goals, hope, and intention. The easiest way to answer those questions above is to ask the creator of us. 

"And in that day ye shall ask me nothing. Verily, verily, I say unto you, Whatsoever ye shall ask the Father in my name, he will give it you." (John 16:23) 

"Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; .. " (Isaiah 58:9a)

God is our creator and i encourage you to ask Him, because it is written that the LORD will answer if we ask. 

"O come, let us worship and bow down: let us kneel before the LORD our maker." (Psalm 95:6)

Know ye that the LORD he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture" (Psalm 100:3).

Saya teringat suatu pepatah Indonesia, "Malu bertanya, sesat di jalan." I have just got the essence of this proverb. Ask then your way - which is very long - will be smooth. ~(｡◕‿◕｡)~ Many things happen out of my imagination, but i have the privilege to ask the omniscient. So lucky.

I wish today is gonna be worse than your tomorrow!

(Cont.)

Regards,

Wondering Me.

M A G A N G

Oops *blushing* haha (with Ingrit and Gideon)

Sampai di titik ini, saya baru menyadari bagaimana rasanya berada di masa - masa penantian. Dulu saya menganggap enteng. Contohnya, orang - orang di usia 25an yang belum menikah di saat banyak undangan pernikahan datang. Ternyata itu memiliki sensasi tersendiri. Berhubung usia saya belum menginjak ataupun melompat-lompati angka 21 a.k.a still 20, saya tidak mengalami hal - hal seperti itu. Tetapi saya menghadapi hal serupa tetapi berbeda. M A G A N G!

Universitas saya memang sudah diprogramkan ada internship setiap semester 8 - 9 yang mana periode nya dipersingkat dari tahun - tahun lalu :(. Nah, tentunya saya ingin mendapatkan tempat yang terbaik dong. Saya pun meng apply sebagian dari BIG 4 and beberapa second layer accounting firm yang punya office di Indonesia. Di saat - saat penantian saya ini, teman - teman saya pun sudah ada yang di panggil untuk tes, interview, bahkan sudah tanda tangan kontrak internship. Omagah. Itu rasanya seperti mau meledak loh ya sambil mata melirik kanan dan ke kiri. Si ini di terima di XXX which is the best acounting firm, si ini dan ini di XXXX yang katanya php banget deh. si ini satu - satunya yang keterima di XX dan si ini ini ini ini ini ini keterima di XXXXXX yang katanya gajinya oke punya walaupun berada di second layer. Ada rasa gimana gitu kalau ditanya sudah dapat magang di mana? Rasanya saya ingin menjadi jinny oh jinny saat itu.

Saya sampai berpikir apakah perlu untuk apply ke company. Tetapi iman saya pun berkata, "Wait." Rasanya hati ini ingin meledak tetapi tertahan dan di remas - remas. Makan tidur minum ke wc sampai showeran pun mikirnya magang. Dari luar sih saya cukup santai sampai - sampai ada yang bilang, " SYL, kok lo santai banget sih?" saya hanya bisa tersenyum miris. Orang - orang terdekat saya sih tidak berpikiran seperti itu. Mereka tahu saya membicarakan hal itu terus menerus sampai mereka bosan mungkin. Tapi biarlah, terkadang enak aja walaupun hanya bercuap - cuap. hehehe.

Satu kali di saat saya hanya mengharapkan dua accounting firm yang saya apply, teman saya pun berkata, "Setau gue sih di KAP XX udah tutup pendaftarannya dan di XXXXXXXX itu katanya udah kloter terakhir yang tes kemarin." Dunia serasa runtuh dan kepala serasa dihujani terumbu karang yang loncat dari lautan luas. Okay saya lebay. Pokoknya benar - benar membuat saya terdiam. Banyak second layer yang oke tetapi hati saya belum ke arah sana. Apalagi company. Saya ingin mencoba KAP pokoknya, begitu saya berbicara ke diri saya. Saya hanya bisa teriak dalam hati dan melihat BlackBerry itu dengan termanggu - manggu.

But di tengah masa - masa seperti ini, i thank God banyak orang - orang di sekeliling saya yang men support saya baik doa, kata - kata penguatan, mengajari teknik tes dan wawancara, sampai membantu cara apply ke KAP nya. Di saat seperti ini pun He has never leave me alone being left in the corner of a dark room. Saya hanya teringat kata - kata Joyce Meyer yang bilang kalau Tuhan itu tetap bekerja di hidup saya, bahkan ketika saya tidak melihat itu. Wah saya langsung say sorry to God karena kekhawatiran saya yang berarti tidak melihat kerjanya Dia yang pasti membawa the outmost PEACE nantinya. Yang saya lihat yang terbaik buat saya, belum tentu yang terbaik di mataNya. I think God wants me to learn something. He wants me to wait for His time, not my time. He wants me to see that His work is always the best. Even saya berpikir kalau tidak ada masa penantian, saya pasti akan menjadi sombong dan tidak menyerahkan semuanya ke God. I will focus only on myself and that is not good in the end.

Ga berasa udah mau natal. Beautiful Christmas Tree.

I thank God di masa - masa seperti ini saya diingatkan kembali kepada apa yang seharusnya saya miliki.

FAITH.

FAITH is the substance of hope

FAITH is the evidence of the things unseen

FAITH: Fear Ain't In This House

FAITH: Fast Action In Trusting Him

FAITH makes me believe that the best is really yet to come

FAITH make me wait with HOPE

And the last is, 

Hakuna Matata

Do not worry and be happy. :)

Regards,

The smiling me.

*Oh God, i can't stop smiling! Bagaimana ini?

Busy Mind - A 7th Semester Lady

Me, myself, and I in the mid of wild wind

7th semester has been running well showing how fast the time flew. FYI, this semester is gonna be the last semester of being present in classes. It's so interesting to know yet frustating. Interested of new experiences i'm going to have and frustated about leaving memories that gonna be last forever :'). Bunch of good friends might turn to be ordinary friends otherwise strangers might be one of best friends. All the happenings in the world always turn around that thinking about that things could explode your mind. Anyway, no more exams, no more assignments, no more effort to make my eyes open when it won't! But thesis is waiting for me to bite.

Me and my friends are in the busiest time to apply to the best companies, trying to search a good place for interns. Yes, we are in the midst of battle preparing all the stuff needed by the company to realize the potentials of us. My heart beats faster everytime people talk about internship period next year but then i'm aware of the successful God has promised me. I do not have to be worry and i am urged to imagine all the good things because what we imagine could drive people to their imagination.  I'm trying to get this words to be my rhymes: "whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things." In short, it made me not to worry about my future. I believe the best place for me has been prepared that the best in God's view may not be the best in people's view.

The other issue regarding the preparation of internship is the confident itself. For me, i do not really confident about my accounting skill. But then my adviser comfort me by saying the most important thing in the work place is character. Skills can bring you to the top but only character makes you stay. You have to believe in your self, if not, just believe in God. He will work on you right when you surrender, when you could not find any way out, and when your brain is about to freeze. 

In this hard situation, i am happy with everyone who help me. It does not mean only people who help me revise my documents for internship, but everyone who paints smile on my face every second. I think God make me balance by giving my the stress releaser. One simple thing would be the CareCell life that makes me alive by make it 'lebih hidup'. When i need someone to be hugged, they would be a very nice place to be my teddy bear. When i need some advices, they would be the best solution maker i've ever known yet God is the source of our answers. When i need my recommendation letter to be revised, the experienced koko and cici would be a more than professional adviser. When i need friends just to listen my babbling, my partners would be ready to give me attention. When i need a place to learn about people, it would be so easy to find a place where i could serve and spread LOVE. When i need someone to correct my grammar, there always people whose english is better than mine. Classmates, exdormmates, housemates, and you are also mean to me. I could not imagine if there is no people like they whom i have known now. 

Rainbow does not always hide in the sky.

Find a place where you are accepted because of who you are not because of something you have that you know how to accept others then love them. By loving them, the joy and peace you'll got is abundantly poured into your heart which is different from anything world can buy. 
Anyway, i am also dealing with so many assignments and 'marvelous' lecturer that are so unpredictable. The intention of skip the class becomes higher and it is so tempting. Yum. Living outside the dorm also need adaptation that i am so grateful that God has been taking care of me regarding the transportation, which can be so hard if you stay two kilometers away from campus. 
Hoahm. Many things i want to write in this post just to satisfy my mind but unfortunately my bed is calling me several times that my eyes response it immediately. 

I am sorry for the mess i made in this post. The words structure that are so messy i mean. Thankyou for giving the attention of my concern. i just wanna to tell what is happening to 7th semester student. Suddenly i remember one thing, whatever i imagine, it always worse than reality. :D So, no need to worry, no need to be scared of, and pray is the most thing needed in any time. 

Good night and hoping someone to give me red roses.
Ps: i dont know why recently i want those red roses so badly. They look so beautiful and lovely.

Best Regards,
Sylvia Happy

Instagram and Twitter: @Sylhappy
Path: Sylvia Happy

Stay out

With Grece - The girl next door

“A man who lacks judgment derides his neighbor, but a man of understanding holds his tongue. A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy man keeps a secret” 

-Proverbs 11:12-13-

 If people talk about you, be still, keep in faith, and keep doing what is right. They will put the shame on their mouth after seeing the truth.

If we surrender our natural desires to the Lord, He will help us to remain righteous.

It Lights The Whole World

with Lee So Hee at Outbound Jababeka

The Sun never says to the earth,

"You owe me!"

Look what happens with a love like that!

It lights the whole sky.