The sound of my teeth: Tears of joy

I got this revelation this morning. It's from Psalm 16. It is written:

⁸I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.

⁹Therefore my heart is glad and my glory [my inner self] rejoices; my body too shall rest and confidently dwell in safety

if it is converted to indonesia, it becomes

	Aku senantiasa memandang kepada TUHAN; karena Ia berdiri di sebelah kananku, aku tidak goyah.
	Sebab itu hatiku bersukacita dan jiwaku bersorak-sorak, bahkan tubuhku akan diam dengan tenteram.

From this scripture i know exactly how He works within me. Only He who gives me joy. The Eternal joy is unshakable, unchanging, and it is new every morning. It is so different comparing to the joy i used to felt. Only came when the situation is good, and if it turned to gloom the joy suddenly been sucked into the darkness. The sign of the joy is the heart glads and glory rejoices. On the other hand, the sign of the outside is rest and dweel in safety. In Indonesian language, the outside shall be at peace, calm, and unshakable. Woohoo.

Anyway, you could see how loooooonggsuffering i have been in searching the internship place for this next couple of terms from the last blog (maybe). Here is the brief story of mine. In late December which is last month, my mind was stucked like no other way out. I did not know what my next term would be when everybody else in my major already got the place for intern. That was really a preasure. To make it short, i already got an offering in a KAP but i knew it wasnt my right place for my internship. Even though i would met my desire if i accept the offering but (un)fortunately i rejected the offering. The week after, i joined the assessment test in another Big four BUT they said i'll know the result at least a month after the test. And it seemed too impossible because the deadline of informing the Campus is the early January.

I remember how i felt that time. The feeling after the assessment test. When i went out from the room, acrrosing the street, waiting for the bus to go back to Cikarang, and when i sat right behind the bus driver. My frowning face hiding behind the shadow of the moon much less the rain was so gloomy outside. Not a heavy rain, only the drizzle but it fits my feeling. I could not stand imagining what would happened if i filled not the internship confirmation form to the campus until the deadline. I'll be so dead, i thought. But yeaa it was not the right response. I should be glad though.

maybe i should be like this. lol.


Or this? Haha

waiting for the bus

in the bus. maybe it was like this LOL LOL LOL

On 27th December, a day before holiday, i applied to several company, not accounting firm. I felt no peace. My seniors told me they thought about me better in the company. I still could not agree. but yeah still i applied. Right after 16.00 PM, a man called me. I thought he was the iseng guy from facebook (idk where he got my number). 'Halo, ini benar Syl-vi-a Ha-ppy Setiawan?" "Iya betul" "Ohh ini dari PWC." and i got a little surprise from that call because i never expect they would call me from the CV i gave on June last year. They email me actually but then they did not send me further response. They said my CV will be screened by the user but a week after that, like php gitu (pemberi harapan palsu). When the phone interview almost done.... "Oke, kayaknya sampai sini dulu aja. ada yang mau ditanya lagi? NITTT. My Phone was shut! Low Battery. Battery drained or whatever it is called. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Panick came ferociously. I immediately charged my phone and trying to call back but no answer. I did know not the name of the user moreover the extension number.

Surrender. I surrenderrr. KRINGGGGG. I was expecting it was from PWC but then i realize it was from one of the company that i send the CV at noon. I had to come to be interview on the next day at 8AM. That was the day i went out of town! Seriously? So lazy but i accept to come. I discussed with my father about my considerations while i opened the email from BB and "KYAAAAAAA" i screamed. PWC sent me the offering mail. I was accepted in the biggest accounting firm in the world.